So Big / So Small

So Big / So Small is the 16th song in Dear Evan Hansen. It is performed by Rachel Bay Jones as her character, Heidi Hansen. This song is Heidi apologizing to Evan for not being there for him and her promising that no matter what she will always be with him.

Lyrics
It was a February day When your dad came by, before going away A U-Haul truck in the driveway The day it was suddenly real

I told you not to come outside But you saw that truck And you smiled so wide A real live truck in your driveway We let you sit behind the wheel

Goodbye, goodbye Now it's just me and my little guy And the house felt so big, and I felt so small The house felt so big, and I felt so small

That night, I tucked you into bed I will never forget how you sat up and said "Is there another truck coming to our driveway? A truck that will take mommy away"

And the house felt so big, and I felt so small The house felt so big, and I.. And I knew there would be moments that I'd miss And I knew there would be space I couldn't fill And I knew I'd come up short a billion different ways And I did And I do And I will

But like that February day I will take your hand, squeeze it tightly and say There's not another truck in the driveway

Your mom isn't going anywhere Your mom is staying right here Your mom isn't going anywhere Your mom is staying right here No matter what I'll be here

When it all feels so big 'Til it all feels so small When it all feels so big 'Til it all feels so small 'Til it all feels so small